6 months

It's been 6 months since I kissed these cheeks and admired this nose. Six months since I held her in my arms for the first and last time. Six months since the best and most difficult day of my life.

Six months ago I would not have believed you if you told me I'd be happy again, that I'd find a way to get up every day and smile, but here I am, doing my best, one day at a time, and with a smile. Thank you to all that have accompanied us on this journey for the last six months. This journey is nowhere near over, and we will continue to need all the support and prayers we can get for as long as we live. It is funny how grief works. I've learned and accepted that my heart will never heal, but I will learn how to live with this beautiful scar.

Sofia, my sweet girl, not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I long to hold you, kiss you, and see you. I grow more and more proud of you each day. In 32 short weeks, you changed the world, something your daddy and I aim to do each day, and you continue to do so. I admire you, baby girl. Your strength to fight for life as long as you did, without a sign of struggle, and your power to inspire people even today, simply amazes me. The wisdom I've gained since you've been in my life cannot be expressed in words. You made me a mama, and you've proven to me that I am stronger than I ever imagined. You've inspired me to do more to make this world a better place. Through our network of family and friends, you have showered us in love, and shown us what a beautiful world this can be. You've made me and Daddy fall even more deeply in love, all over again. You've grown our hearts so big, you've given us emotions so intense. I never knew I could feel emotions the way I do now.  Thank you, sweet angel. Each day I strive to make you proud. You've given me new purpose in my life. I will forever share your story, and someday, I promise to do more for families with stories like ours. I don't know how or what it will look like,  but together, we will continue to speak up and hopefully bring comfort to those who are given a journey that looks different than they had planned. I'm so grateful to have you in my life and I look forward to the day I get to hold you in my arms again. I love you, baby girl.